Back to Basics

Sitting in my room by myself and listening to angry/sad songs. Why? Because a total stranger said something today that pissed me off and upset me. I’m a big baby. I feel like I am back in middle school. Now all I need to do to complete this memory is go sit on gaia and write some shitty poem about how I am going to kill myself and hope someone reads it -_- Can’t believe I actually use to do that. But anyways, today fucking sucked. 

I feel like real friends are the ones you don’t have to talk to everyday. They are the ones that you know will always be there. They don’t need reassurance every hour to know that you are still friends with them. It’s a deeper connection that goes without saying. I know I don’t talk to my friends everyday, I wish I could. But the world is a busy, hectic, life draining, black hole of icky-ness that requires me to “grow up” and go to school to get a job. Unfortunately since December school has been my life. I guess what I am trying to say is; I know I have been preoccupied the past few months but I am always within reach. If any of you ever needed me I would drop everything to be there for you. I fucking love you all.

Two weeks from now I will be starting my externship at a vet clinic. Super nervous but excited at the same time. I feel like I am finally moving on with my life and one step closer to moving out. I know I still have more steps to go, but I just can’t fucking wait for Jess and I to have our own place. I still have two weeks of school to drag through though. It’s hard to focus on these projects and assignments when all I can think about is having a job and getting out of here. Stressin.